With the pandemic continuing to wreak havoc on our lives and the global economy most of us are trying to become accustomed to the new normal. My happy memories are beginning to feel as if they were from centuries ago. I find myself purposefully placing myself in past mental time loops to cling to some sort of community, and positivity as the current situation makes me feel as if we are all on mute.
Flicking through pictures of old times, making an extra effort to reconnect with friends while rehashing old memories is bringing me an extreme sense of comfort. It is mind boggling how these things seemed so time consuming with our hectic lives before that we sometimes would categorize them as non-essential.
When I find myself getting overwhelmed with this constant state of emptiness, I try to reimagine some of my darkest moments and wonder if I would have survived the pandemic under them. Though I know this is not the healthiest thing to do, sometimes I can’t help but wonder: what if?